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Good evening. I'm alone at home, With Lucky. ( My Dog )
I'm here trying to write a post. To Express my feelings.
Its Not normal lately.
God Damn it.
Well, Did you have that feeling that you terribly Love and misses that one person You love, and suddenly the feeling, just poof? Like the clouds in the sky?
Well, If You don't, Then, You're lucky.
This feeling don't come really often, Its like once in a 3 generations? *I guess
Anyway, There's this girl, She's Form 2. She's In my school. I Loved her.
I did. I waited. Waited like a Plane That's gonna land in my backyard.
Well, Love is blind. The problem is Its like Astro.
You never know What movie it's going to be broadcast when U switch the tv on.
We were always So blur in this relationship. Never know where that train is going to stop.
We had Great times, Times that I wish It stayed that way forever, But. Day by day. Feelings Are fading away. She was always like, Hi. And I was like, Hey. :) And then, Silence creeps in the conversation.


Basically, I used This concept. When You're in a relationship..
The Guys Will have to start the engine, And then it's up for the girls' to keep the engine running. And to end it, It must be Swiftly.
But, The thing is.
I started the engine, And in a blink of an eye, The engine just broke down, There's no Cupid to repair this broken engine of this relationship. But, I just bared with it. I tried pushing that car further, And guess what?
The End result is shitty, That's not cool.
When I say, "I love you", I mean it. And all she does, Either she Do this, ^_^, Or hehe. That's all.
How you expect me to feel the love?
And guess what? For her to say that 3 Meaningful words to me may cause her life, cause, She don't say it.
And I'm getting bored of this Same-old routine every single time.
Tonight, is the night, When She Finally wanted to keep the engine running, But too bad, My car has been hijacked. My feelings for her has actually ended. Well, In my opinion, I think. I'm the bad guy, :'/
But, Truth will be justified at the end of the day.


This Is apart of my feelings for tonight.
Just to express. Good night. :')

2012

This is my first post in 2012. I know, I'm awesome, so, how's it going on with u guys? Things been kinda different lately, maybe. Friends are somehow going apart everyday, things with my girlfriend is also, kinda disturbed. However, I try to convince myself that she only loves me, not anyone else. Like she did before. Haizz, not wanna talk about it. :/ 2012 is nt really a good year, well, balanced, but, I know theres still many things to come throughout this year, :) Anyways, FYI I gt a new phone! :DD Xperia U! :D yes, it's awesome. :DD I just couldn't finish my English camp blog cuz it just brings me lots of memories, therefore, I would like to put that topic on hold. PMR trial is just around the corner, like maybe around in 3 weeks, or so? Legs are shaking, heart is pounding, my spirit is frowning, :-/ but, there's still time for me to improvise. :)) by the way, have. Guys watched the Amazing Spiderman yet? For me it's astounishing. :)) the graphic is awesome. The fighting is superb. :D I think I'm a disturbed young teenager, cause, things are going rough at home. My parents faith towards me are lowering everyday. :/ I'm giving love, but not receiving it, :-/ I don't want to tell her, but. She should know that I'm trying my best to give her my best, but, the other part of my emotional soul is saying that she haven't give up fr that other guy. :/ well, now is the only time I can beg god for forgiveness, and hope he can give me the best in my life, :') Before I end my blog post, leave some comments if you're reading and describe how's your 2012, :) peace out guys. :))